About Carien Ji
“Deep within, she carried an unspoken love.
A love so vast it could never be captured in words.
She had so much love to give, yet it rarely reached the people around her.
It bounced back, as if her heart was overflowing and the world could not receive it.“
Carien Ji’s sense for the unseen was present from a very young age. As a child she knew there was more than what the eyes could see. Her grandmother noticed and often said: “That girl is far wiser than she appears.” Carien carried much in silence, but there were always people who crossed her path bringing just enough love to support her.
Later, Carien Ji married, searching for warmth and stability. In relationships she longed for connection and healing. She gave much, yet often did not find the space to fully reveal herself. Still, her heart remained open. Longing for true connection, and for a place where she could be wholly herself.
She built a practice that grew from small circles to a flourishing, busy place. But one day she felt this was no longer her way. She let it all go, including her thriving practice. Not out of rejection, but from a deep longing for authenticity. Not success, but truth became her compass. Her path is about remembering who you truly are. About coming home to yourself, beyond roles and expectations.
Years of stillness followed. A divorce. An emigration. Long stretches of solitude. And yet she felt: this is how it must be.
In Spain, Carien Ji opened her garden as a place of love and a safe haven to stay. For four years people lived within that space. It was a time when hearts were touched, yet many hidden layers also surfaced. In the presence of love and clarity, old patterns became visible: complacency, projections, resistance, pain.
Many of these shadow-sides could not be embraced. Often there was no willingness to truly face them. Instead, they were projected onto Carien Ji. And yet she kept returning, again and again, to the heart. Again connecting, again opening. For a moment the light could be felt, yet often the heaviness returned.
This demanded much of her strength and dedication. At the same time, it brought deep clarity: love can touch and reveal everything, but true transformation can only happen when there is a willingness to take responsibility for one’s own heart.
This period revealed a truth: everyone is welcome, but in her presence everything will rise to the surface. Both light and shadow. And true receiving requires inner openness and the courage to face one’s own layers.
Years ago, a teacher once told her: “You carry something that must be brought from heaven down to earth.” For this she had to ripen, to grow. Her longing for true spiritual knowledge became stronger. Not in words or theories, but in lived experience. In connection. In silence. In depth. For a very long time she searched for a Guru who could point beyond illusion, beyond words, rituals and appearances. A Guru who reached into the deepest layers, who covered nothing, who would not accept what was not true. Not superficial comfort, but truth that cuts through all veils. Controversial for those who cling, liberating for those who dare to let go.
Carien Ji already carried a clear awareness, and through this her consciousness could open and deepen further, through many dimensions. The path was intense, often lonely, full of questions and longing. Again and again, the realization grew: the true guide had not yet appeared.
During this search, profound experiences became tangible. Encounters with higher energies such as Lord Morgan, Lord Shiva and Shakti touched her in ways no concept could contain. Through them, she broke through layers of ego, fear and illusion. The path was painful, a continuous confrontation with loss, disappointment and old wounds. And yet it offered space: for devotion, honesty and inner growth. She learned to open fully, to break, and to rise again. Stronger, purer, more alive than before.
After many years of searching, Guru Ji entered her life. His presence was immediately felt: calm, clear, all-encompassing, and yet unfathomable. He was an Aghori from the Himalayas, completely unknown, his path hidden from the public eye. Access to his presence demanded severe tests. Only those truly ready could take the steps. Carien Ji was guided by something greater, along a path that prepared her heart and soul, until she finally met him.
No pampering, no soothing words. A warrior with a vast heart and fierce clarity, knowing all corners of the universe and still always learning. For the first time, she felt safe to be fully herself, and discovered that real freedom arises when all protections are dropped, when softness no longer needs to hide. He brought deep knowledge, a pointer back into the heart of her own being. She learned to be herself in every layer of herself: fully present, fully open, fully alive. It was liberation. A breakthrough that transformed her life forever.
For Carien Ji, God is not a concept, not a religion, but a living reality. A silent force that permeates everything, connects everything, embraces everything. Her path is about letting go of what looks beautiful but feels empty. About seeing the greater whole. About living from the heart. Gentle, complete, free.